Glossed and Found event

A TOC blog post about a beauty event I attended in the South Loop.

Venus Zine; Spring 2007, Mother's Day

Yo mama, you rock!

Venus Zine gives a Mother’s Day shout-out

By Venus Zine Staff
Published: May 12th, 2007 | 6:49pm

TO: LINDA KALWINSKI
FROM: GRETCHEN KALWINSKI, VENUS ZINE WRITER
Lately, I've been thinking about how über-DIY my mom is. I have fond memories of my hippie-parents building their own garage and cutting labels off clothing to protest advertising. But my mom's Lately, I've been thinking about how über-DIY my mom is. I have fond memories of my hippie-parents building their own garage and cutting labels off clothing to protest advertising. But my mom's Do-It-Yourself attitude wasn't just ’60s counterculture-nonconformity, it was necessity. She came from scrappy immigrants who re-used every plastic baggie, every piece of aluminum foil. Then her father died when she was 16, and DIY took on a whole new meaning for her family — making their own clothing, canning vegetables and fruit actually helped the 6 of them survive. During my childhood, she managed to work full-time while also making clothing and costumes for us kids, designing her own "Snugli" before they were popular, cooking from scratch, baking elaborate birthday cakes in the shapes of trains and animals, and still attending every game, every dance performance. Even now, when it's no longer financially necessary, she re-uses materials, gardens, and makes clothing herself. I believe that every creative urge, every cooking, yoga, or gardening impulse that my siblings and I have, we owe to the DIY street-cred instilled by my amazing mother when we were kids.

Time Out Chicago; Books Article; O Street

Time Out Chicago / Issue 107: March 15–21, 2007

Chicks and balances

A debut author upends chick lit with an unflinching look at poverty.

By Gretchen Kalwinski


If there existed a polar opposite to chick lit, Corrina Wycoff’s O Street (OV Books, $17.95) would exemplify the genre. The debut author isn’t interested in romanticizing love, motherhood, hardship—or anything at all, come to think of it.

O Street collects ten short stories about Beth Dinard, who spends her Newark childhood caring for her mentally ill, homeless, junkie single mother. “Visiting Mrs. Ferullo” shows Beth following a neighbor home, longing for the home-cooking aromas that waft from the woman’s apartment. In “The Wrong Place in the World,” adult Beth is in Chicago trying to stabilize her life even while her brutal memories affect her relationships and attitudes about class and work. When she gets a phone call informing her of her mother’s death, it triggers a relapse into old, destructive patterns. It’s tempting to read the tightly linked stories as a novel, but Wycoff stresses the importance of the form.

“In a linked-story format, I can present other points of view as short pieces of contrast,” she says. “I wanted to structure the book so that it begins and ends with a death, because I wanted it to read as a cycle. Linearity, to me, seems more of a construct than cycles.”

A single mother herself, Wycoff says the stories should not be confused with autobiography.

“They are based on a political truth: Single mothers fall through the cracks in this country, and the cracks grow in proportion to these women’s economic challenges, making inaccessible the so-called American Dream,” she says. “When my son was born, I’d not yet gone to college, and money was extremely tight. I drew on that experience…but by the time I wrote about it, [I] had changed enough that it didn’t resemble my ‘real’ life at all.”

In one scene, a depressed Beth wishes that she could “grow into someone new—someone who could easily have had two parents, good breeding, hearty suppers and piano lessons.” Passages like these strike unexpected chords. Though many contemporary narratives deal with women’s physical and spiritual transformations, few do so at the poverty level. This is, of course, no grand coincidence: Poor women face even more barriers than their male counterparts in getting their stories told.

“The second of these I wrote when my son was two years old,” says Wycoff. “I wrote it, in part, in reaction to all of the sentimental, dreamy writing about motherhood. ”

In Chicago, Wycoff met UIC’s Cris Mazza, an award-winning author who has waged a one-woman war against the chick-lit genre. Since then, Mazza has become both her creative muse and mentor.

“Twelve years ago, I read How to Leave a Country, and decided I needed to read everything she’d ever written,” Wycoff says. “She was the reason I chose to go to college and, later, graduate school at UIC, and she helped me see that the disparate single-mother stories I’d written could be linked.”

Because of the book’s gravitas (the title story is especially harrowing), getting O Street published wasn’t easy.

“I got about seven rejections over the course of four years, all from small presses,” she says, “many of whom called the collection ‘too dark.’”

Indeed, Wycoff portrays the gritty, sorrowful elements of her characters’ lives head-on and offers no easy solutions—no one’s riding up on a white horse, but neither are the stories bleak. Instead, drama and tension are delivered in such a subtle but detail-infused way that the reader becomes invested in Beth’s plight early on in the collection. The collection will likely elicit Dorothy Allison comparisons for its depictions of poor women and lesbian relationships, .

Wycoff is working on a novel now, and is planning another about teaching at a community college.

With chick lit down, it looks like the vaunted “university novel” may next.

Wycoff reads this week.

Punk Planet; Book Review; We Don't Need Another Wave

We Don’t Need Another Wave: Dispatches from the Next Generation of Feminists
Edited By: Melody Berger
Publisher: Seal Press

Editor and founder of The F-word zine Melody Berger compiled this collection of essays to critique the ways that contemporary feminism is discussed in the media. “We don’t need another wave,” she writes in her introduction. “We need a movement.”

The foreword is by Bitch Magazine editor and founder Lisa Jervis, who says that the “wave” terminology has outlived its usefulness and is often used by the mainstream press to position 2nd and 3rd wavers as “anti” one another, (i.e., 2nd Wavers reject humor and sex; 3rd Wavers aren’t politically active). Jervis’ take is that the idea of a simplistic generational divide serves no one, and that we should keep discussing the main point—gender justice—while retaining myriad voices and opposing perspectives that move in the same direction: forward.

Topically, the essays run an impressive gamut—covering everything from Latina reproductive rights activists, a critique of the GLBT wedding industry, the organization of sex worker rights, one woman’s reclamation of sexuality after abuse, and the inherent issues of being one-half of an interracial lesbian couple. One of the contributors is Jessica Valenti, who runs a blog called feministing.com, and writes with intelligent passion about the image problem of the word “feminist” and why women shouldn’t shrink from it, in her piece, “You’re a Feminist. Deal.”

Another stirring essay is by Kat Marie Yoas, who grew up in a trailer park, and later ended up in academia. Yoas grapples eloquently with the complexities of living simultaneously in two disparate worlds, including identity-confusion, class-anger, and insulting assumptions made and spoken by her colleagues. In “Steam Room Revelations,” writer, teacher, and filmmaker Courtney Martin tells of coming to term with body issues and self-consciousness via a raucous group of older women who frequent the steam room at her local YMCA.

What’s thrilling about the collection is how firmly grounded in activism the contributors are. The diverse bylines are made up of educators, artists, poets, filmmakers, founders of non-profits, students, performers, all who live and breathe the issues they’re writing about. I’d nitpick that several of the confessional poems embedded in the collection don’t serve it well, but mostly this is a gaggle of brash, fun, enlightening, fearless, and on-point essays by people working in the trenches of contemporary feminist issues, and for that it’s well worth your lunch money. ---Gretchen Kalwinski

UR Chicago; Sounds Interview; Christine Baze

UR Chicago / Sounds section

Interview with: Christine Baze
By: Gretchen Kalwinski

Christine Baze wants to reach every “woman and every man who has a woman in their life that they love” so that she can scare the hell out of them. With good reason -- she's trying to prevent other women from suffering as she did in 2000, after being diagnosed with cervical cancer and having a hysterectomy 10 days later, throwing her life and musical career into disarray.

During recovery, Baze learned about cervical cancer and HPV (high-risk types of the virus cause cervical cancer and low-risk types cause genital warts). She also watched Harold and Maude, a film famous for its humorous morbidity and spirited, 79-year-old Maude. Inspired by Maude's yellow umbrella, Baze began playing music again and decided to incorporate cervical cancer awareness into her message. She started the nonprofit organization Popsmear.org and the Yellow Umbrella tour, an annual musical benefit that educates women about preventing cervical cancer.

HPV is extremely common -- almost 80 percent of women will get the virus by the age of 50. It gives no symptoms and is transmitted through sexual contact. Annual Pap tests are supposed to catch precancerous cells but they don't always do so, and Paps don't test for HPV, so it's important to get both the liquid Pap and HPV test. “People say, 'It's too invasive to get in the stirrups or get a finger up my butt,'” Baze says. “But you know what's really invasive? Getting a radical hysterectomy or internal radiation. Getting a Pap or an HPV test -- that's going to save your life.”

Having HPV doesn't mean you'll get cervical cancer: The immune system usually fights off the infection. But when high-risk types of HPV persist, precancerous cell changes can occur and cause cervical cancer. However, because it is one of the few types of cancer for which the cause is known, Baze says it's beatable. “We've got the answers and we can't say that about any other cancer.”

Baze's initial reaction to her own diagnosis was disbelief. “I was healthy and having the time of my life,” she recalls. “After the disbelief was incredible horror and anxiety.” But her compassion made her an activist. “Cancer disempowers you because your own body is betraying you,” she says. “But after chemo I felt so empowered and started getting onstage saying, 'Hey ladies! Pay attention! This can save your life.' It worked -- and now I'm in my fourth year of touring around the country doing essentially the same thing.”

This fall, Baze and headliner Kaki King (previous lineups featured Ben Folds and the Samples) will perform in 35 U.S. cities, including Chicago. The tour is also sponsored by companies doing work related to cervical cancer, such as Digene, the makers of the HPV test.

Baze, whose new album, Something New (Lime Green), mixes jazz with electronica, says her musical sensibilities shifted post-cancer. “I was trained as a classical pianist and did that for 20 years, then just before cancer my music had a nonsensical, whimsical attitude,” she says. “Now the songs come from a place of deep appreciation of my life. These days I think about the gift of cancer, the enlightenment that comes with it.”

The tour reflects the same spirit. “We're celebrating the passion of music and the passion of life,” Baze says. “Even the venues and promoters have been so supportive; these guys come up to me at the end of the night like, 'Hey Christine, what's that test? HPV? I gotta tell my wife.' And they write it on their hand to remember, which is so cool. If that happens once every show, everything I'm doing is worth it.”

Words: Gretchen Kalwinski

The Yellow Umbrella Tour hits Schubas (3159 N. Southport; 773/525-2508) October 14; Something New is out now

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Venus Zine; Book Review; Memoirs of a Muse

Published in Venus Zine, Spring 2006


Memoirs of a Muse by: Lara Vapnyar

This first novel by Lara Vapnyar tells of a modern muse living in New York and obsessed with the great Russian writers, Dostoevsky in particular. The main character Tanya emigrates from Russia to the States, after deciding in adolescence that she is not gifted in her own right and asking, “could I fight death by living my life to the utmost degree?”

Tanya’s ideas about muses went far back into childhood, when her grandmother warned her about the trials and tribulations of the role. Still, Tanya is so impressed (and turned on by; she masturbates while thinking of Dostoevsky) the great writers that she decides to achieve immortality by inspiring another person’s work. Vapnyar’s lyrical style is notable for its fine detail, economy of words, and tight, crackling dialogue, best evidenced in the gender-interplay between Tanya and Mark Schneider, the writer that (in the absence of Dostoevsky), she takes up with. Mark is confident, with well-honed tastes in everything from coffee to clothing to architecture, and he enjoys schooling Tanya on the tenets of his sophisticated world, paying for her clothes and food, and letting her live with him. In turn, she listens to his childhood memories, discusses his work, brings him coffee while he writes, sleeps with him, and undresses the way he requests, until the affair turns up its eventual pitfalls.

However, the reasons why a modern-day woman would choose this role instead of pursuing her own path, are left unanswered. After all, which of us in adolescence had a declared passion, other than the prodigies or geniuses? Why did Tanya lack the curiosity to find and develop a talent of her own, rather than glomming onto some dude? We never discover why Tanya decides on such a lazy route at such a young age. To be sure, muse-dom is a complicated notion to tackle, especially since muses are usually female and have roles similar to that of “kept” wives and mistresses. In the latter half of the book, Tanya begins to understand what her role entails, and Vapnyar handles the contradictions of a muse’s role with intelligence and dry humor and earthy, womanly insight.

-- Gretchen Kalwinski

Venus Zine; Author Interview; Elizabeth Merrick

Interview with Elizabeth Merrick, novelist, for Venus Zine, January 2006.

Elizabeth Merrick
Novelist Elizabeth Merrick chats with Venus about her new novel, Girly, starting her own press, and remedial math

By: Gretchen Kalwinski

Brooklyn-based Elizabeth Merrick is a writer, editor, writing teacher, creativity consultant, independent publisher, blogger, feminist, and founder of two reading series. Her personality is representative of New York City’s energetic power and creativity, and though she purports to be “deeply lazy,” it’s hard to buy the claim. Here’s an extended laundry list of her accomplishments—after receiving a BA from Yale, an MFA from Cornell, and an MA in Creativity and Art Education from San Francisco State, she founded and began curating the well-known and women-focused Cupcake Reading Series, followed by the launch of the Grace Reading Series in September 2005. She is the editor of the upcoming Random House anthology called This is Not Chick Lit, a collection of new short fiction by literary women authors, (read: authors NOT writing with a fashion-mag mentality). She has taught classes at Cornell and NYU and began her own writing school several years ago, where she teaches students in the Brooklyn area how to tap into their intuitive and creative powers, along with conveying her extensive knowledge of technique and craft. The cherry on top is that she just started a small press called Demimonde Books, with its initial release being her first novel, Girly—a 524-page tome that was published in December 2005.

Girly takes place mainly in rural Pennsylvania, and depicts the unfolding of events in several women’s lives, most primarily the lives of the Hart family women, made up of Racinda Hart, her psychologically damaged sister Ruth, and out-of-it mother Amandine, who became a born again Christian when Racinda was a baby. The themes of Christian fundamentalism, and spiritual and sexual awakening pervade the novel, which was called “smart, sharp, and on the edge” by Hannah Tinti, the editor of the brilliantly unpretentious One Story Magazine. When I talked with Merrick, she was relieved to finally have a few days off, after a year of 12-hour work-days spent getting Demimonde Books up and running.

In Girly, there are 7 different points of view with women’s voices being the dominant ones. Was it your intention to use so many points of view from the get-go, or did that just gradually evolve during the writing process?
It was definitely my intention. Part of writing it was that I was very much interested in NOT writing a typical first novel or just write a novel to write one. I wanted to write something that resembled the books that blew me away. One of those authors for me is Louise Erdrich, who is Faulkner-ian; I actually think that she takes Faulkner to the next level. She is commanding and I loved the sense of a community telling a story—this community of characters. I loved finding things from one character that the other characters don’t know about. That to me was the most interesting part, interesting part of the endeavor of writing a novel. I really loved that part of it.

You said you wrote Girly because you were looking for a book on the shelves that you wanted to read, and couldn't find it, so you decided to write one. So I wanted to find out what you think Girly offers that other books might not?
In the late 90’s, publishers were putting out a lot of amazing fiction which isn’t as true now—it’s gotten a lot more corporate. But the book that I wanted to read was one of these epic books (that are mainly written by guys) that are formally ambitious and long, like David Foster Wallace for instance. I wanted to see a version of those books by a woman of my generation, and one that took into account Toni Morrison and Louise Erdrich; our epic women writers who are amazing and who have carried literature a step further into the 20thth century. I couldn’t find that book, so I tried to write it and am not sure if I got there, but I tried and it’s a decent effort and people seem to like it well enough. I think Girly is challenging in certain ways—the language is dense, for instance. I tried to make it beautiful but hope that the story still grips you. A lot of times there is not a category of books like that by women. There are women writers who are in their 40s or 50s who have been writing dense epic books forever, and they aren’t nearly as well known as they would be if they were men. Joanna Scott is one who comes to mind—she is amazing but yet a lot of writers and a lot of people in publishing aren’t aware of her work. Although, some young guy writers are often aware of her work. I think David Foster Wallace has said that she is one of our best living writers. And the same thing happened with Paula Fox; she is in her 80s now, but she only got back into print because Jonathan Franzen introduced a book and made a big fuss over her. So there are these women producing serious literature but who fall through the cracks; with women artists, that’s the way it is, you know. That’s what the Guerilla Girls are making such a big noise about, and you spend decades of your life battling this stuff to whatever degree you can.

So, you’ve got a big presence on the Web—I especially enjoy the “Remedial Math” section of the Grace Reading Series Web site, where it talks about the fact that the New Yorker bylines are 79% male, versus 21% female and it lists different statistics of male versus female bylines. You’ve also stated that part of the problem is that literary men simply don’t enjoy reading literature by women, and I just thought that was fascinating. Can you talk more about that? I haven’t done a study myself on that but there was an informal poll, I think in the UK Guardian, where they asked men what books they had recently read and the guys came up with books by men, you know, basically the men had read books only by men whereas women had read books by men and women. I’m okay with this. I think that if men don’t want to read books by women that’s okay with me, they’re grown-ups, it’s fine; it is not my job to be telling anyone what kind of taste they should have. I am in no way interested in that. What I am interested in is equal pay for equal work. And that is why it always comes down to those numbers. And that 21% at the New Yorker is a very strange status quo because it is representative—it really does tend to be only about 20% women across the board. And it’s fascinating that it is so consistent! Even with the young upstart literary magazines that are certainly not making a lot of money and are very much not part of mainstream pop culture, it's still only about 20% women. And I can tell you right now that people paying for MFA’s are more than 20% women. And English majors certainly make up more than 20% women. There’s a weird disconnect that happens when we get to the job, and the paycheck and the authority of the byline.

I think all those figures you just mentioned point to how difficult it is financially to be a woman writer, because, like you said, many women are paying for writing degrees and not getting any work—how do you work rent into that equation?
Yeah I started looking at the bylines in graduate school and counting them because I was thinking; “Wait a minute, what’s the plan?” It’s not like it was some political cause. It was very practical—it’s like I need to pay rent when I leave graduate school and was thinking, “This is not a very good plan!” You see it’s just thematically so predictable, and then you start to realize that it’s bigger than just you…I know tons of freelancers—brilliant women—paying rent by writing for Cosmo Girl or Elle Girl when they want to be writing for Harper’s and they should be writing for Harper’s, and Harper’s would be a hell of a lot more interesting if these women were in it. But for whatever reason that didn’t happen. I think that Harper’s is especially insidious on the issue of women’s bylines. I have a friend that told me that the gender ratio of men to women over at Harper’s is like a Star Trek convention. [Laughs].

This might be a whole separate conversation, but do you think that literary men are perhaps less interested in reading literature by women because women tend to tell the stories of their lives a bit more—not even necessarily autobiography—but stories adjacent to the lives they’ve lived?
It’s possible, but the thing is, of course women should be telling those stories! It’s been only 35 years since the 2nd wave of feminism. Women didn’t get to go to Yale until 1969. So it has really only been this one generation and yet, the rightness of the idea of men and women being equal and being equal partners in relationships etc, etc. is so true and so right that [society] has adjusted to that very quickly because things simply work better. But the changes are so huge that it's a lot for people to deal with, I think men especially. So, because it’s only been 35 years, of course we need to tell all these stories, because they are so important and fascinating, but these stories are not valued yet. No one cares what happens to a 12-year-old girl, really. And that is very sad, but very true if you look at the policies in our country, especially where children are concerned, and you look at the gender inequalities that still exist. It’s a blind spot that we have. And what are valued are male stories—it’s just still kind of true. And guys naturally want to write their own experience and read their own experiences, and—lucky them!!—their experiences are more valued! And win awards! And are granted authority. And it’s interesting because we just got the news today that the James Frey book is largely fabricated. In his book there is vomiting and serious drug use and crazy arrests, and that book was considered serious literature. And it was so funny to me when Girly came out, because as a teacher, I think I give my students optimism and belief and trust in their intuition, all that kind of stuff. I’m a bit airy-fairy and part of Girly was narrated by a goddess and the book has this very strong spiritual belief. So it was really funny to me, this kind of literary Pollyanna in my everyday life that the reviews of Girly say things like “it’s so dark with massive drug use and filthy sex.” And there is not actually that much of that stuff in there! I mean there is some drug use but people mostly smoke pot, and it was very funny to me that because I’m a woman the reviews read that way and people are sort of shocked and reviewing it like, “it is so dark and bleak and nihilistic.” Whereas for a guy, reviews for that kind of book with dark themes read like, “he’s the next inheritor of literature after Dave Eggers.” So I got a big giggle out of that because my regular life is so herbal tea and optimistic, and then I got to be like this deep, dark, hot Sylvia Plath lady with those reviews.

Your book is being published by Demimonde Books, a press that you started up, and the stated mission is “to focus on risk-taking literary prose of exquisite quality.” I was wondering how you decided to start your own press, and if you have a staff or it’s a one-woman show at this point?
Oh my gosh, what an adventure! I just had my first week of slight downtime in a year because Demimonde Books has been taking 12 hours a day, which is not my natural bent; I am actually deeply, deeply lazy. I recently took a little personality quiz, one of those Myers-Briggs things and found that I am the personality type that is introverted and really spaced out and idealistic and on another planet, the kind of person that can’t find their keys. So I was laughing so much because starting a press is all about all those kinds of details, the business end of things and organization. And I have the reading series and my workshops and have way more going on than one person who was practical about how much person could actually do at one time. But I really wanted to do it all, so I just did it, and people really showed up to help. I have people helping out with publicity, and Emberly Nesbitt, who is an editor of the Grace Reading Series, is also an editor at Demimonde and we’re looking at manuscripts now, which is a really fun generative phase as opposed to production, which is getting everything out and at the right time and the right phase. I also have some administrative help at the press and there is a lot of crossover with the Grace Reading Series. With my workshops, too, it can be hard with the phase we’re in to find a space that celebrates gorgeous writing but that doesn’t have literary one up-man-ship which I cannot stand. I am not interested in a “literary lifestyle”. I am interested in the writing, which to me is something that is really earthy and connected to all the old stories and it has to be funny and has to be a place where there isn’t ego, and those are kind of ugly and uncomfortable places sometimes, but can also be fun and delightful places. All of that is really different from a publishing cocktail party, which can be fun, but is not where I live and thrive.

You have three more books coming out on Demimonde in 2006, right?
Yes, we’re going to publish three books, but it might carry over into 2007. Something that I’ve learned about publishing is that it’s always better to wait until you have all the pieces, so it’s looking more like late 2006, early 2007. Plus, I found this really amazing literary cookbook, actually sort of a dirty literary cookbook, by someone who lives in Park Slope and works in publishing. It is these sexy recipes with a literary bent, but we’ll see what happens.

Since your book is the first published by Demimonde and since it runs approximately 500 pages, I was wondering what the editing process was like?
It's been edited by a few different people, one of them was Emberly, the editor at Demimonde. People were really generous with their time in editing it; I was really grateful. And actually, the director's cut is 700 pages. But this 500-page version I'm pretty happy with. So, the Grace Reading Series has been going on since September 2005, is named after your grandmother, and has featured Beth Lisick and Jill Solloway among others.

What is unique about the reading series other than the fact that it is women-centric?
Well, the series is only once a month with one or two writers, so that there is a clear vision of trying to focus on literary books by women that are crafted with care and thought, and that are substantive. It is a way to focus attention on them because they don’t get it in bookstores, and they don’t get it in book reviews, (we have statistics on this on the Grace Web site—most of the review space goes to male writers). And a lot of attention goes to commercial women writers and “fashionista lit.” So, it’s an activist wing in many ways, without being dreary, like a fun activist wing. Also, we just started a book club where we do review recommendations of 3 books a month. We started doing that because I was finding that everyone—from my friend who is a comp lit major at Yale and conceptual artist, to my very cool hairdresser, to friends in academic publishing— were telling me that they’ve given up on contemporary fiction because, “every thing I happen upon is crap.” This has to do with publishers being so big and corporate and kind of out of touch with the community of serious readers and just trying to sell the latest Paris Hilton book or whatever. This seemed like a shame to me, because there are still wonderful books being published, but there is a disconnect there. So Grace is a way for people to find out what those books are and how to get them so that they can start reading again. It was my little way to do that.

You have a writing school that is run out of your living room?
The writing school just turned 2 years old. It’s grown a little bit, so now I just have the advanced classes at my home, and the rest are taught at a location in Park Slope and SoHo sometimes, too.

What is the demographic of those classes?
It’s funny—it’s mostly women. For awhile I wondered if that was because of all of my other endeavors, but I think it also has to do with what I specifically offer to students. The big thing I give to people as a teacher (underneath all the craft and everything else), is how to quell through the terror and doubt of “Why do I have any right to say this at all? Why would anyone ever be interested?” Women feel that and it’s paralyzing! And part of the reason is that stories about 12-year-old girls DON’T win Booker prizes.

Right; their fears are justified!
...And they DON’T see those bylines in the New Yorker. And maybe they’re not thinking about that consciously but that is what they’re battling with. And so all those years that I battled with that in Girly, to get to the point where I was comfortable with my own authority as a writer, I learned things that I am able to help my students with. And it’s so rewarding to see it work and it’s amazing to see women start to progress and trust themselves as writers. Everything is kind of condensed down to this foundation class that I require students to take first. When I started teaching these workshops that is what I came up with, and it is a progression that takes you through both getting to your creativity and opening up that intuition. Then very quickly in the 3rd or 4th week I move into all of the craft stuff and progression on a curriculum, which is pretty much wholly missing from workshops in academia! Really, no one gives you this stuff! Emberly and I laugh all the time, because all of the years in workshops, no one ever told you how to do that stuff; you had to figure it out on your own. You’d go to workshops and people would critique this or that but then you never knew, “OK, how do I then go home and do that?” So, there was no way I was going to teach an insipid, ineffectual writing workshop; it had to be really essential information that was going to work. So I boiled it down and it works—people become productive writers who know how to write stories that people want to read and are able to craft a beautiful sentence. It’s almost to the point where I’m present, but the process carries the students along almost on their own, once they get this information.

Seeing your students’ progress must be ridiculously rewarding for you.
Oh, my god! My crew right now is really working hard, and they recently had a reading at Lolita Bar where they each read for 5 minutes and all of their friends came, and I was so blown away that I could not speak. And they are so much better than most of these review copies I get—everyone was electrified, and I was like a dorky mom cheering at a game or something.

How long have you been writing—did you write as a kid?
Well, I think writing was always my natural strength. But, because it was something that came easily and got me things like good grades in English, I didn’t trust it. I kinda wanted to be a punk rock bassist and then I was a film major. But then I figured out that you had to be really extroverted for those things, and deal with all of these physical irritations like lighting and microphones. So, after trying a bunch of different things, it became clear to me that I wasn’t just writing because of praise or whatever, and I could do what I wanted, and be as expansive as I wanted and not have to lug around a camera and mic all the time.

Speaking of music, I know you like Sleater-Kinney, Bjork, and PJ Harvey; do you listen to music while you’re writing?
In the early phases, yes. I’ll drive and drive and drive and the stories will show up. And then at a certain point, the music will start jangling and I’ll hear the characters speaking, and I’ll have to turn the music off. What the music does is get me into my right brain—all of the intuition stuff—and then once I can access that and the story is there, I turn it off. The music for me is the way to feel unconstricted .

Was there anything else you wanted to talk about?
I'm glad we got to talk about the women writers who have gone before, because for me, that is where the sanity is. Even Demimonde is linked to that—it's all part of a larger picture. Also, I wanted to mention that I think magazines like Venus are so important because that is a place for curious women writers, especially young women writers to write about and hear about a broader range of topic beyond “how to take a bath” or whatever the features are in the women’s magazines. I just think that it is so important to have these spaces because that is where women really get to express different ideas and ways of life. I’m so grateful for what you guys are doing, because a lot of women have no stuff that is in magazines like Venus or Bust. I taught a class at Cornell titled “Women’s Secret Stories” and one woman in the class was from Louisiana and had always been anti-choice and I started bringing in magazine articles for the class about women, like Margaret Cho for example, and her world was turned upside down.

Right, and once you plug these women into stuff that they don’t hear about in the mainstream, give them those tools, you’re helping to bridge a gap to everyone they know, too.
Then, the really fun thing is that what they then come up with! I experienced the same thing with the writing of Girly. I would read every interview with Margaret Cho and listen to Sleater-Kinney and PJ Harvey, and every little bit of something like that, that I absorbed it like it was encouragement to me, that, “Yeah, you CAN do something that is not going to fit into ‘Must See TV’.” And now, from all of those women doing amazing things, things like Grace are formed, which is another place for women to come together. For me, I don’t know if I could survive the Bush administration if I wasn’t working hard on this stuff. It’s the only way that I can think of in my own little way, to push for an alternative version of the story.

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Venus Zine; Interview: Ladyfest

Published on VenusZine.com, November 2005.


You've come a long way, lady
Ladyfests are gaining steam ‘round the globe

By: Gretchen Kalwinski

The first Ladyfest took place in 2000 in Olympia, Washington. In addition to bands like Sleater-Kinney and Cat Power performing, the weeklong event hosted bands like the Rondelles, Neko Case, and Mary Timony, and a dizzying array of varied spoken-word artists, authors, and visual artists, along with workshops and dance partiesOlympia festival, an astounding 80 Ladyfests around the world have been successfully planned, testifying to the need for this sort of event. Ladyfests should not be mistaken for a franchise, however, and the different Ladyfests are not related to one another, except in spirit. The varied places around the world that have hosted Ladyfests include Bloomington, Indiana; Chicago; San Francisco's Bay Area; Nantes, France; Glasgow, Scotland; Toronto; Los Angeles; Stockholm, Sweden; Melbourne, Australia; Seattle; Berlin; Napoli, Italy; and Vienna, Austria. In 2005, approximately 30 Ladyfests were scheduled to take place worldwide. Venus interviewed organizers and performers from this year’s festivals in Brisbane, Australia; Guelph and Ottawa, Canada; Denver; Lansing, Michigan; and Johannesburg, South Africa.

The Organizers
Ladyfest organizers as a whole are a determined lot with an idealistic focus and an overabundance of energy. They also are uniquely open-minded about their attendees and welcome all genders, unlike the Michigan Womyn’s Music Festival, for example, which restricts attendees to only biological females. Sarah Brown of Ladyfest Ottawa noted that their demographic was "definitely young women 18 to 30, but we had audience members of all ages and genders." Fellow Ottawa Ladyfest organizer Natasha Beaudin attributed their good turnout to dynamic and feminist-oriented programming, affirming that, “it was definitely a better turnout than one would get [from] a lecture on feminism, for example."

Ladyfest Guelph organizer Ashley Fortier was impressed with the event’s large attendance and the variety of ethnicities that were represented, especially given Guelph’s small population. “It was a very diverse crowd, especially at the hip-hop night," she said. Ladyfest Out West organizer Shannon Perez-Darby commented on the queer focus of their festival’s performances. "Over 75 percent of our performers were queer, lesbian, gay and/or trans identified," she said. The organizers of Ladyfest Guelph went a step further by specifically listing their event as"anti-oppressive, feminist, queer and trans-positive, DIY, and collective."

Local Focus, Broad Appeal
The 2005 Ladyfests had varied concentrations in their different locations. Some had a heavy hip-hop presence, while others were more film-centric or focused on performance art or workshops.At Ladyfest Ottawa, the closing party with the Gossip was the most popular event, and Alix Olsen was a "big hit" in Lansing, Michigan. The best-attended performance at Ladyfest South Africa was a band called Electro Muse, a string quartet that combines drum‘n'bass tracks to trip-hop.

Workshops also drew in enormous crowds. Sarah Brown of Ladyfest Ottawa mused that, "A panel discussion on privilege in activism was one of our best-attended events. Bookbinding also had high numbers." Nearby in Guelph, the workshop on urban gardening was hugely popular. Oftentimes, decisions about performers and events were made broadly and then localized, with organizers focused on bringing in as much local talent as possible. "We included similar broad themes like music, art, politics, film, etc., but then tried to re-appropriate it to the Brisbane context," said Ladyfest Brisbane organizer Nikola Errington.

Similarly, Ladyfest Ottawa included local talent such as Les Alumettes, Sarah Hallman, Daydream Square, and the Hussies. Ladyfest Out West brought in resident spoken-word artists Jeanette Henriquez, Angela Palermo, and Isis, in addition to well-known local activists Ashara Ekundayo and Kelly Shortandqueer MC and the Denver band Supply Boy.

The Talent
When asked about their Ladyfest experience, performers often got gushy. Susie Patten was double booked at Ladyfest Brisbane with her bands I Heart Hiroshima and the Mean Streaks, and she enjoyed playing to the crowd’s enthusiastic response. “My bands played first and second, so we thought that there'd be a pretty quiet vibe around, but everyone was really into [it]. The crowd response was fantastic. Maybe that was just because Kate Bush was played in between sets." Patten attended other Ladyfest events while on location and said that "apart from the rad music, the photography exhibition was probably the highlight — so much awesome talent."

Patten said the only changes she would make for future Ladyfest stints are that she’d like to play last. "And for Cat Power to support us, and maybe even for her to fall in love with me,” she said. “So realistic." Deb Cavallaro of the Golden Circles called the Brisbane Ladyfest an "intimate, beautiful, dynamic, honest, and inspiring gig. As far as sisterhood goes, there was a fair bit of that feeling going around that night and [it was] kinda great … when you look at the stage and see more than one woman out there."

Organizational Challenges
The momentum for these festivals seems to be only increasing as time goes by. In 2002, there were 13 Ladyfests; in 2004, the number had reached 26, and in 2005, close to 30 Ladyfests occurred around the globe. This steady growth is encouraging to those of us who aren't having our needs for this kind of event met in mainstream culture. However, there are definite challenges in planning these festivals. First, there is no one source of income or funding for Ladyfests, and one of the first things that organizers are obliged to figure out is how to raise funds through advertising, fundraising events, or auctions.

Ladyfest Ottawa raised funds via craft sales, bake sales, film nights, rock shows, garage sales, art parties, and bottle drives. Sarah Stollak and Latricia Horstman of Lansing, Michigan’s Ladyfest invested the money from their tax returns to fund their town's festival, in addition to applying for grants and selling ads to local businesses. Ladyfest South Africa secured Jose Cuervo as a sponsor and "used most of the funding to pay the marketing and printing" costs for their festival. There are definite challenges to organizing other than finances. Many organizers struggle with the admittedly valid critique that Ladyfest and events like it can work to marginalize women artists and performers. Being cast as an "alternative" culture can run the risk of alienation, an important point to consider when in the planning process. Others depict the female nonprofit organizing process akin to a series of infighting sessions, characterizing women's managerial styles as too emotional or complicated.

However, the typical response from a Ladyfest organizer is that although the planning completely consumed their life for the better part of a year, the payoff was enormously rewarding. Most organizers said that they'd do it again but would change small parts of the process. For instance, they suggested a different organizational structure, setting earlier application deadlines, and, as Nikola Errington of Ladyfest Brisbane said, "we would try and make EVERYTHING all-ages."

When asked if she'd program another Ladyfest, Sarah Brown said, "Hell yes. Organizing this festival is so rewarding. It deeply affects your life, and as an organizer you have the privilege of watching it affect others." Latricia Horstman muses that she set out on a mission to bring Ladyfest to Michigan in a way that changed her community’s mindset, all the while having fun and providing a fantastic opportunity for folks to get involved and learn. “The ultimate goal for everyone participating or attending: to have fun, learn something, and have some money at the end to give to a charity,” she said. “Every year we've done just that."

Good Deeds, Progressive Values
Ladyfest South announced on its Web site that it is a forum for "radical and progressive women everywhere" and goes above and beyond the call of duty by not only paying their performers, but raising a good deal of cash for local social-service projects that assist women, such as the DeKalb Rape Crisis Center and the Women's Center to End Domestic Violence.

Ladyfest Mexico will be held in Monterrey in February 2006, and the organizers are calling for submissions of women artists, including photographers, writers, actresses, filmmakers, musicians, and fashion designers. The festival will focus on subjects such as the situation of women in politics, society, and the economy, with a critical reflection of the role assigned to women in the work-field and family by societal and moral values.

The possibilities of Ladyfest seem endless. As long as there are women producing good work, there is a seemingly endless array of locations and venues for Ladyfests to showcase them. It is of note, though, that what most of the organizers, participants, and attendees are ultimately working for is a world where the kind of work, art, and music featured in Ladyfests around the world would automatically be showcased and valued by a larger and more diverse demographic of society. We've come a long way, ladies, but there is still a long way to go.

The Future of the Fest
Some upcoming Ladyfests in 2006 are in Atlanta and Monterrey, Mexico. For more information about past and future Ladyfests, visit http://www.ladyfest.org.
All photos courtesy of Nikola Errington of Ladyfest Brisbane 2005.

Top photo: Stitch N' Bitch event
Middle photo: Scout Niblett performing
Bottom photo: Women in Activism workshop